The last post sounded a little depressing. I am actually happy today. Today is grocery day. My freezer is full of good things. I am thankful for that. I should not be complaining because my needs are met. If I want to go and get some clothes I have the Lane Bryant card for that. I don't plan on using but I got it.
      I have free internet and free phone at the club house so it is just a no brainer to cut off the cable/internet/phone to my apartment for the summer. I will pick up it up in the Fall if I get financial aid or I might pick it up when I get my job this summer. I will miss the convenience of having the internet and cable in my apartment though. Desperate times call for desparate measures. I know that I don't need the added expense. I would much rather have gas money than cable right now. Sitting up in this house is making me depressed. I need out of here.  I am going to try to get out to West Virginia for a couple of weeks.  Anyway, life is good.  I am going to eat me a pizza and then Zumba later to work it off later.

P.S. There is no extra money in my account. I don't know why people insist on hacking it. I pray for the LORD to convict them.

Just gabbing

        Life is going good inspite of not having any money. I met a real nice lady today named Rhonda while taking my trash out. Over the last couple of days I had been fighting depression a little bit. I have so worried about how I was going to make through the next couple of months. I have tried everything to get a little money in order to pay some of my bills. Seems like the more I need money the more I want to spend it. In the past, this has been a part of my illness showing. Every day I fight guilty feelings about all the fast food bags lining my front passager seat. I can't seem to stop eating or spending money. It makes me sick to think of all the money I could have in my pocket. Every time I eat out, I spend $6 dollars at a time. I know that I am totally in denial about my spending. My budget has went from about $1200.00 dollars a semester down to $700.00 dollars.  Now I am down to just a little gas but I have soap and toilet paper. No more school until September I guess. I really wanted to take a Prob and Statistics class this summer so I wouldn't have to do it in the Fall. It is still early in the summer though. Maybe someone will give me a little help.

The War of the Words by Dr. Larry Ollison

For those new to my site, I often post article by Dr. Ollison. He always had a "right now" word of confirmation for me. I thank God for men and women who listen to God. I am happy to pass this teaching on to you. Pray,read and let it speak to you.

The War of the Words by Dr. Larry Ollison        The enemy has words. His words are his weapon and they can cut and destroy. They have a purpose and that purpose is to bring fear and discouragement to you. When fear grabs your heart, the enemy has accomplished his mission. With fear, there is no faith. Without faith, there is no victory.          From the time of creation until now, God has not changed. Neither has the devil. From the beginning in the Garden, Satan spoke lies and deception. (Gen. 3:1-5.) The problem was not that Satan was a liar. The problem was that someone believed his lies. Without the belief of Adam and Eve, the lies would have accomplished nothing. Only when their belief was added to the words of the enemy did the destruction happen.        Today you have a choice. According to Proverbs 18:21, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue." Your life and your death are in the power of the words you speak. The world you live in today was formed by the words you spoke yesterday. And the world you will live in tomorrow is being formed by the words you speak today.      Jesus said in Matthew 12:34 that we speak out of the abundance of our own heart. Then in verse 37 He said, "For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned." The words that come from our hearts have power because we believe them. Likewise, when we hear the enemy speak words of doubt, fear, and destruction, we must cast those words down and not allow them to enter our hearts. You will speak your heart.      The words we meditate, the words we repeat over and over, are the words that find their way to our hearts. The words that are embedded in our hearts are the words we believe. And then, when we speak them they have power -- the power to build or the power to destroy.     There is a war of words that wages continually in the realm of the soul. Your eyes and ears are the entrance to your soul. You are the gatekeeper of what enters. The words of the world and the Word of God enter through the same gates. The soul (your mind, will, intellect, and emotions) decides what it keeps and ponders and what it casts down. The words you keep become who you are and frame your world.      You decide what movies you watch and what music you listen to. You decide what minister you hear and you choose your friends. Your life is full of choices and you are the one making them. You may not feel like you are, but you are. God has placed before us life and death and He wants us to choose life. He will not choose it for you. You must make the decision. "I call heaven and earth as witnesses today against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing; therefore choose life, that both you and your descendants may live" (Deut. 30:19).       So as you live your life each day, remember this. The enemy is a liar and his mission statement is to destroy you, your life, and your witness as a Christian. He does this through his lying words. Also remember, his words only have power when you add your belief to them.      When the enemy says all is lost, don't believe his words. Instead, believe the Word of God. Stand strong. When Jesus said that all things were possible, He added this: "Jesus said... ‘If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes [His words]’" (Mark 9:23 explanation mine). Reject the lie. Meditate on the truth. Speak the truth from your heart and stand. You will see victory. "Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand" (Eph. 6:13). "Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, to which you were also called and have confessed the good confession in the presence of many witnesses" (1 Tim. 6:12).

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Hello Again!

        Hi fellow christians, family and friends.  I have missed writing to all of you. This not something I do just for attention. It is therapy. I deleted my other blog completely a long with the account so I had to create something new. One of my jobs in the body of Christ is to equip the saints. This blog is part testimony and part ministry. It is also a prayer request line and a place where people can come to see what it is like to be a real christian. I know that I am very flawed. I don't alway get it right. I struggle with sin like the next person. I am human. One thing I will try not to do is get in the flesh. Sometimes it is hard to control your temper when people say and do offensive things to you but the scriptures say that we are supposed to go to the person and try to deal with that first. It is easy to come one line and just vent but that is not the way Jesus would want us to be have. Keeping It Real sometimes means Keeping It Real Ignorant. I don't want to be ignorant, I want to be like Jesus. I want to Keep Jesus from now on.  I hope that all of you how get this post will enjoy it.