Looking For The Open Doors

          I am not writing too much on my blog lately. I think sometimes we need to be quiet. I am glad that the Lord is working things out for me. I am excited for the new days that are coming ahead. I am finally free from the past and all the dead weight. I am literally praying doors to stay shut. God sometimes says no for a reason. We don't always understand the reason behind what God is saying but it is important to let go even if it is something that we truly wanted. God has something better for me. It has been 8 years since I start trying to break out of my comfort zone to do God's work. This journey has been hard at times but I know the Lord was just polishing me. I had a lot of rough edges but God mellowed me out. He also taught me how to keep striving for his best. I learned perseverance through everything and how to have unconditional love towards God. I know out of His love for me He has said no to some people and some situations.
    
     " Though he slay me, yet will I trust Him." Job 13:15

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Many of you have tried to open up some doors by pushing and pressing.  Those were not the doors that I opened for you but I'm about to open up doors that will be open up wide and see these are the doors for you, that I have enlarged so that you can proclaim my gospel, large so you can walk up and down in my glory.  For the glory of God will rest upon you and many will see and know that I Am God. I'm placing you in a right place, in a strategic place for the season that is at hand.  Many are lost and needing someone to show them the way.  And you are that group and I have divinely inspired places for you and I'm about to bring and open those doors wide for you.  You think that you're forgotten, you think that I have left you out. But I have not left you out, I'm bringing you to the forefront.  I'm bypassing all others so that my glory might be seen in these last days so that I can un-strand the last remnant of those who would be saved.  I'm working a plan and my plan is for the kingdom.  So listen and follow Me, says the Lord, and you will see that greater way, you will know that greater vision, you will know the glory of the Lord God in the midst of diversity.  You will know Me like you've never known Me before.

 "I know your [record of] works and what you are doing.  See!  I have set before you a door wide open which no one is able to shut; I know that you have but little power, and yet you have kept My Word and guarded My message and have not renounced or denied My name." (Rev. 3:8- Amplified)
"There is a right time for everything, and everything on earth will happen at the right time." (Eccles. 3:1 Easy To Read Version)

Give Unto the Lord

Money, money, money...it makes the world go around. Seems the more you have the more you want and the more you need it. Right now, I need some money. I have a little bit in my pocket. The worldly thing to do is to hold on tight to the little bit but I have learned as a christian to give things away when I have a greater need. Sometimes you need to clear things out to make room for other things. A seed produces more seed. You sow one seed to get one plant of corn. Each plant might produces several ears of corn. On those several ears there are hundreds of seeds. All those seeds came from one seed. If you are faithful in a little, God will bless with more. It seems to me that I have been holding onto seeds instead of planting them. The more seeds you plant the bigger the harvest. The harvest sometimes comes in souls or other things. Just because you sow a financially doesn't mean you will get financial harvest but you will get a return of some kind. I had a friend tell me that she didn't believe in tithing and as a consequence, she was always broke and still is. 10% of your income is not a lot of money. It is only 10 cents on a dollar. It is not just the money you give but the attitude in which you give it. If you don't believe in tithing or don't want to do it then God doesn't want your money. You will not be blessed in your giving because you are not a cheerful giver. I always gave to Jesus in the past but now it seems harder to give. Maybe this dry season I am going through with money has to do with how I am treating God with my finances.

God Is Right On Time!

      This summer has been trying on my patience. It has been one financial snag after another. In the mist of this, I have been trying to find a new apartment. It seemed like no matter what I did no door would open up. Actually, I had someone keep me from getting a new place to live- God bless them. My whole life was just one big bag of confusion. I know that the Lord is not the author of confusion so I just stopped striving trying to fix things on my own. It was like I was running up against a big wall.  I decided to just move home to West Virginia for a while and put my stuff in storage. During this time I just waited. Joel O'steen always says you should follow your peace. I just didn't peace about anything. I didn't know whether to move home or stay in Tennessee. I really had a hard time leaving my apartment because I loved living at Allandale but I had to go.
      One thing I knew for sure is that I would have to go back as a full-time student so that I would be able to afford rent in the Fall because I could not get into a low income apartment. But first I packed up  and went  to West Virginia, I was flat broke, I had spent all my money trying to move myself into storage and feed myself. I was bankrupt. While at my mother's house, I decided to work on adding classes to my schedule for school. Still I didn't know what I was going to do about an apartment in Kingport because everything I had was riding on me having a residence in Tennessee before school started. As I was adding my new classes, a new screen popped up showing me that I had an additional 1300.00 coming to me this year in grant money.  It was a blessed surprise. God knows what we have need of and he said he would never see his seed wanting and begging for bread. The only glitch was that  my extra money would not come until two weeks after school  had started but that little boost gave me some hope.
     After about 8 days of laying on my mother's big brown couch, I drug myself to the computer and looked at the classifieds online in the Kingsport Times Newspaper. I looked at every rental but it seemed like all the apartment listings wanted what I didn't have.  I didn't have a deposit or a full months rent. On top of that I had a bank note payment due in days with no money in the bank. I was about to go to a pawn shop and get rid of my computer and printer.(Later, I actually tried to pawn a few things but no luck.) One apartment complex caught my eye called Crosscreek. They were offering a free months rent and the apartment complex was owned by the same company of the apartments I just left.I am just glad that I left the apartment in decent shape. I talked with management at Crosscreek Apartments and they showed my an apartment when I came down to Kingsport a couple of days later. It was small but it was nice. Another bonus was that if I had good credit that I would not have to pay the adminstration fee. I didn't have it so anyway so I paid the $25 dollar application fee and left. They told me they would contact me that evening or early the next day if I qualified.  I went home to West Virginia that day and waited for the call -it didn't come. Early the next day, I picked up my phone to call to call Crosscreek Apartments.. As I was dialing, the phone rang in my hand and I answered. It was Crosscreek Apartment managers. I didn:t qualify for the deposit to be waived so I had to pay the two hundred dollars. I prayed about it and God said my mother would help me. Without me asking her she gave me $300.00 dollars to help with moving and the deposit. I will get 100.00 off my 2nd month's rent in September.  They also said I could move in at any time. God did a complete turn around in less than two weeks. I am so happy to be moving in on August 1st. It has been nothing but God's grace. Without His Grace I don't know where I would be.

Small Straws In A Soft Wind by Marsha Burns

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS

Breakthrough is the order of the day.  Circumstances that have seemed resistant to conclusion will now give way to resolution.  This time of bringing things to completion will seem like a sweet and refreshing rain that breaks the drought or dryness that comes with stagnation.  It will be like the breaking of a dam that frees the movement of a river to flow to its designed destination.  Rejoice, says the Lord.  Let the flow of My Spirit carry you to destiny. 
John 7:38 "He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water."

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Small Straws In A Soft Wind by Marsha Burns

Faith Tabernacle July 13, 2012

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS:   I speak to multitudes when I tell you that your quest for attention and recognition is simply selfish ambition as you seek to express yourself in unique ways.  But, My purpose for you is that you become a vessel through whom the expression of My Spirit can flow, unhindered by your flesh.  You do not have to clamor and strive for position or compare yourself with others.  Simply be what I have created you to be and surrender completely to My purposes in and through you.  Even if you happen to acquire the attention you think you need, it is still empty and vain.  Establish yourself in secret communion with Me, says the Lord. John 7:4a "For no one does anything in secret while he himself seeks to be known openly."

Praise/Prayer Report

Marlena, my teacher, did not call my school. The Lord worked out my problem out without her. I got credits from old college which now makes me a junior....hurray. Pray for all of my family and friends in West Virginia. Everyone is without power there and some are still without water. There was a huge storm system that passed through the East Coast of United States which caused major damage to power lines and water lines and now there is a heat wave. Much prayer for my fellow West Virginians. I left a day before the storm hit but the enemy hit me with a blown out tire on the way home. Praise the Lord, I was going at a low speed and there was no accident. I am also praising God that my family is safe with no major disasters to their property or their lives.

On another note, I am in the process of moving or getting a roommate. I am not sure which one is going to happen but I need my finances to change. I cannot afford to continue to live here without help. Please keep me in your prayers.

Move Mountain

Faith Tabernacle June 28, 2012  SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS: Rise up in the realm of the spirit and speak to your mountain, that mountain that looms large before you that you do not know how to get around or over.  I have given you the authority to move it out of your way so that you can progress unhindered.  There are things that are beyond your ability to deal with in the natural realm, but all things are possible with Me, says the Lord.  Speak to this mountain in My name. Mark 11:23 "For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says."

Wow, what a lesson!

       Ok, I talked to my friend who was my teacher.She didn't have anything to do with it the mess with my grades and I believe her. I feel so bad for thinking that she possibly could have done me wrong. She will try to clear things up for me tomorrow. To be honest, it is my fault. I listened to Betty Mask who is over disability department. She told me just to start over and not get my real grades. I knew I had a debt out there and it should have been paid when I got my back time but in the back of my mind I thought no one will ever find out. Well, someone found out. Luckily, I have borrowed the money to pay the majority of the debt. Finally, I am having to pay to get the real grades from Concord College. This is the last of my really big debt. It will take a year to pay it off but I am glad to see it go. It is a 17 year old debt. This will release me to go to the other college. Lesson  well learned. Lying in anyway doesn't pay off no matter how much you reason it out in your head. I am praying that the Lord allows me go back to school period.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. 
Romans 8:27-29

Wow, I can't believe that it has been a month since I have wrote anything. A lot has happened since I last wrote anything. I was given a word of prophesy two weeks ago that I would be writing a book of some kind. I am hoping that this is it because I don't have the patience to do it on paper.

Here are some updates on my current situations:

I am having problems with money. I am currently moving to a smaller apartment. It will be closer to church and school and $300.00 dollars  a month cheaper than my current space and it is near a huge city pool.

I tried to go to summer school it was not the best idea. I dropped out after 4 days and went home to West Virginia for a week vacation. When I went home, I found out that I had to get some transcripts from two former schools. I found out that I was charged $7000.00 for an education that they have no record of. I think it is going under investigation. Someone I know could possibly lose their teacher's liscense or/and could be fined. Keep this person in your prayers because the teacher is christian from my old church.

Mother's Day Message

Acts 16:16-    Title: Has God Called You Out?

Paul and Silas were imprisoned because they cast the spirit of divination out of a woman who had been following them for weeks while they preach. They were put in the inner most part of the prison and the jailer was told to watch them. At midnight, Paul and Silas began sing the praise of the Lord. Suddenly an earthquake came shook the place.The chains of the prisoners were loosed and the door of the prison flew open. The jailer was scared, he supposed to take his life. He cried out. Paul assured him that everyone was still there. The jailer and his whole family ended up saved.


The relevation on this Word is that eventhough sometimes you are free to go, you have to stay where are so that someone else might not get hurt. Years ago, I went through a similar situation with my mother. She was in a bad relationship with a man who was on drugs. I was an adult, I was free to go at anytime but because I dwelled in her house, God's protection stayed on the household. 

One day, my mother came home and said I feel like I am in a prison. I knew something was about to happen. Within two months our house burned down. God had called us out of that particular place but we were still in bondage because the man she lived with didn't change. We moved to a house on the street like she like it so she could walk from her car to the house. We close to my brother which was also a desire of her heart. Everything that was given to us after the fire was better than what we had ever own but still there was bondage. My mother's boyfriend was still with us but little by little my mother chains came off. Little by little, this man started losing the hold he had over our mother because we children refused to leave her alone.


 Finally, her boyfriend got caught by the police doing a crime that made him go into an actual jail. My mother could not pay his way out of get him out of trouble this time.  This was my mother's ticket out. I remember grabbing her hand and praying for her telling her the 7 was the number of completion. It was exactly 7 since they had met. It had been 5 years since I had been in the situation. The number five represents the grace of God.

My mother kept in contact with the man for year from jail but he never came back at all. I  was definitely called out but I couldn't leave my mother in that situation. It took 15 years for me to finally leave West Virginia to make to another state to live plus go back to school. I am greatful for all th opportunities that the Lord has blessed me with but I had to serve somewhere were it was uncomfortable in order to get where I am today.

Week 1

          I am exactly 7 days into my vacation. Today I went to counseling. My new friend had to call me to make sure that I got out of bed on time and into the bath. I hate going to counseling because it only last for 20 minutes. There is not really anything to talk about. I am coping pretty good with life except for the fact that I am broke. I am so greatful for what I have though. All my needs are being met.
           Anyway, I remembered about 3:30 today that Sunday was Mother's Day. I had to run out and buy a card and a little surprise for my mother and get it in the mail by 4:30 p.m. I almost didn't make it because of traffic. While in Dollar General getting a card, I ran into one of my friends. Her name is Ms. Jessie. She too was sporting a cute little short do.( Her hair is almost completely white,She's 70). Grey hair is stunning on older black ladies in my opinion.
          To all those reader who are mothers, I would like to wish all of you a very Happy Mother's Day.
I am not a mother myself but I have loved many children. There are not enough words to describe how beautiful some of you are. Thank you for allowing me to help you raise your children.
         

   I read a word today from Faith Tabernacle Church this morning. It said to look for opening doors. It also said to get some rest. Well, my pastor prayed the same thing for me on Sunday. Before I could get out of the door, the Lord had already moved on something. Only time will tell what things will turn into but I am hopeful. Also I have decided not to go to school this summer. I need to just rest this summer and wait until the Fall. Hopefully, I will have money to pay the cable/internet/phone in the Fall. I was told that I had 4 more semester of financial aid so if I can survive this summer I might stay at my current location. Only time will tell what will actually go on. I need to stop trying to figure it out and wait on the Lord.

On a different note, my cousin Stephanie is awaiting surgery. Keep her in your prayers. I am praying for the Lord to do a miracle in the situation and disolve the lump.

    The last post sounded a little depressing. I am actually happy today. Today is grocery day. My freezer is full of good things. I am thankful for that. I should not be complaining because my needs are met. If I want to go and get some clothes I have the Lane Bryant card for that. I don't plan on using but I got it.
      I have free internet and free phone at the club house so it is just a no brainer to cut off the cable/internet/phone to my apartment for the summer. I will pick up it up in the Fall if I get financial aid or I might pick it up when I get my job this summer. I will miss the convenience of having the internet and cable in my apartment though. Desperate times call for desparate measures. I know that I don't need the added expense. I would much rather have gas money than cable right now. Sitting up in this house is making me depressed. I need out of here.  I am going to try to get out to West Virginia for a couple of weeks.  Anyway, life is good.  I am going to eat me a pizza and then Zumba later to work it off later.

P.S. There is no extra money in my account. I don't know why people insist on hacking it. I pray for the LORD to convict them.

Just gabbing

        Life is going good inspite of not having any money. I met a real nice lady today named Rhonda while taking my trash out. Over the last couple of days I had been fighting depression a little bit. I have so worried about how I was going to make through the next couple of months. I have tried everything to get a little money in order to pay some of my bills. Seems like the more I need money the more I want to spend it. In the past, this has been a part of my illness showing. Every day I fight guilty feelings about all the fast food bags lining my front passager seat. I can't seem to stop eating or spending money. It makes me sick to think of all the money I could have in my pocket. Every time I eat out, I spend $6 dollars at a time. I know that I am totally in denial about my spending. My budget has went from about $1200.00 dollars a semester down to $700.00 dollars.  Now I am down to just a little gas but I have soap and toilet paper. No more school until September I guess. I really wanted to take a Prob and Statistics class this summer so I wouldn't have to do it in the Fall. It is still early in the summer though. Maybe someone will give me a little help.

The War of the Words by Dr. Larry Ollison

For those new to my site, I often post article by Dr. Ollison. He always had a "right now" word of confirmation for me. I thank God for men and women who listen to God. I am happy to pass this teaching on to you. Pray,read and let it speak to you.

The War of the Words by Dr. Larry Ollison        The enemy has words. His words are his weapon and they can cut and destroy. They have a purpose and that purpose is to bring fear and discouragement to you. When fear grabs your heart, the enemy has accomplished his mission. With fear, there is no faith. Without faith, there is no victory.          From the time of creation until now, God has not changed. Neither has the devil. From the beginning in the Garden, Satan spoke lies and deception. (Gen. 3:1-5.) The problem was not that Satan was a liar. The problem was that someone believed his lies. Without the belief of Adam and Eve, the lies would have accomplished nothing. Only when their belief was added to the words of the enemy did the destruction happen.        Today you have a choice. According to Proverbs 18:21, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue." Your life and your death are in the power of the words you speak. The world you live in today was formed by the words you spoke yesterday. And the world you will live in tomorrow is being formed by the words you speak today.      Jesus said in Matthew 12:34 that we speak out of the abundance of our own heart. Then in verse 37 He said, "For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned." The words that come from our hearts have power because we believe them. Likewise, when we hear the enemy speak words of doubt, fear, and destruction, we must cast those words down and not allow them to enter our hearts. You will speak your heart.      The words we meditate, the words we repeat over and over, are the words that find their way to our hearts. The words that are embedded in our hearts are the words we believe. And then, when we speak them they have power -- the power to build or the power to destroy.     There is a war of words that wages continually in the realm of the soul. Your eyes and ears are the entrance to your soul. You are the gatekeeper of what enters. The words of the world and the Word of God enter through the same gates. The soul (your mind, will, intellect, and emotions) decides what it keeps and ponders and what it casts down. The words you keep become who you are and frame your world.      You decide what movies you watch and what music you listen to. You decide what minister you hear and you choose your friends. Your life is full of choices and you are the one making them. You may not feel like you are, but you are. God has placed before us life and death and He wants us to choose life. He will not choose it for you. You must make the decision. "I call heaven and earth as witnesses today against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing; therefore choose life, that both you and your descendants may live" (Deut. 30:19).       So as you live your life each day, remember this. The enemy is a liar and his mission statement is to destroy you, your life, and your witness as a Christian. He does this through his lying words. Also remember, his words only have power when you add your belief to them.      When the enemy says all is lost, don't believe his words. Instead, believe the Word of God. Stand strong. When Jesus said that all things were possible, He added this: "Jesus said... ‘If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes [His words]’" (Mark 9:23 explanation mine). Reject the lie. Meditate on the truth. Speak the truth from your heart and stand. You will see victory. "Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand" (Eph. 6:13). "Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, to which you were also called and have confessed the good confession in the presence of many witnesses" (1 Tim. 6:12).

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Hello Again!

        Hi fellow christians, family and friends.  I have missed writing to all of you. This not something I do just for attention. It is therapy. I deleted my other blog completely a long with the account so I had to create something new. One of my jobs in the body of Christ is to equip the saints. This blog is part testimony and part ministry. It is also a prayer request line and a place where people can come to see what it is like to be a real christian. I know that I am very flawed. I don't alway get it right. I struggle with sin like the next person. I am human. One thing I will try not to do is get in the flesh. Sometimes it is hard to control your temper when people say and do offensive things to you but the scriptures say that we are supposed to go to the person and try to deal with that first. It is easy to come one line and just vent but that is not the way Jesus would want us to be have. Keeping It Real sometimes means Keeping It Real Ignorant. I don't want to be ignorant, I want to be like Jesus. I want to Keep Jesus from now on.  I hope that all of you how get this post will enjoy it.